Rain.

A funny thing about my “Regn” playlist is that I always end up listening to it. When it’s raining and when it’s not. When it’s cold and when it’s warm. When it’s summer and when it’s winter. When it’s night and when it’s day. When it’s light and when it’s dark. It’s always rain, rain, rain. What does this mean? That my songs aren’t really suited for only rain at all? But when I look at the list, it’s exactly what I think of – cold, wet, drizzling rain. So is it always raining? I think that it is. It’s always raining in my head. Whether I’m happy or sad, tired or excited, there’s always the pitter patter of drops hitting the window in the background. So, whenever I feel like it, I know that “Regn” will always be there to welcome me.

Playlist – Regn

1. The Perishers – Trouble Sleeping

2. Death Cab for Cutie – Transatlanticism

3. Dios Malos – You Got Me All Wrong

4. Bright Eyes – Lover I Don’t Have to Love

5. Broken Social Scene – Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old

6. Ryan Adams – Wonderwall (Oasis Cover)

7. Mazzy Star – Into Dust

8. Bright Eyes – Bad Blood

9. Aqualung – Strange and Beautiful

10. Nada Surf – Your Legs Grow

11. Yo La Tengo – Autumn Sweater

12. Bon Iver – Bracket, WI

13. Band of Horses – Cigarettes, Wedding Bands

14. Death Cab for Cutie – Crooked Teeth

15. Iron and Wine – Each Coming Night

16. Bon Iver – Flume

17. José González – Heartbeats (The Knife Cover)

18. Mumford and Sons – I Gave You All

19. The White Stripes – In the Cold, Cold Night

20. Paramore – Misguided Ghosts

21. The Shins – New Slang

22. Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Soft Shock (Acoustic Version)

23. Iron and Wine – Such Great Heights (Postal Service Cover)

24. M. Craft – Dragonfly

25. Bloc Party – Signs

26. Blue Foundation – Eyes On Fire

27. Sonic Youth – Superstars (The Carpenters Cover)

28. Florence and the Machine – Hospital Beds (Cold War Kids Cover)

29. Coconut Records – Microphone

30. Sea Wolf – Black Dirt

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I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating

No sir, well I don’t wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It’s your turn, so take a seat we’re settling the final score.
And why do we lie to hurt, so much?

As upset as I was (and still am) over the latest developments regarding Paramore, I think I’m forgetting the most important part. I should think about everything that I have gained from the band, not everything I’m losing. Paramore is and will always be one of my absolute favorite bands…if not the band I treasure the most. Here’s tune of the day, it’s as close to my favorite as a song can get and I can without doubt say that the video for it is the best ever made. Of course, I’m a bit biased.

That’s what you get when you let your heart win…

‘Cause all we know is falling, it falls…

I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m hurt. I’m completely and utterly heartbroken. Josh and Zac Farro are leaving Paramore. There’s no more Paramore. Hayley, Taylor and Jeremy are still going to continue under the name Paramore, but it won’t be Paramore. Josh wrote some of the best songs the band made, and Zac added the drum beat that made the songs them. Now there’s no more of that. Paramore has been more important to me than I can describe. It all started isummer day in 2006, when I first saw the video to Misery business, and nothing has been the same ever since. This was the first band I ever truly liked. Their songs have helped me a lot. The first time I heard lyrics I could relate to, the first time I heard music that actually made me physically feel something. My first concert. The first time I felt unity with a large amount of people I didn’t know anything about, all with one thing in common: we loved Paramore. The first time I was able to belt out the words that had affected me so much, with people who understood, and most importantly, with the people who expressed it in the beginning. The first time I felt alive. Like I was on top of the world. I can’t believe it’s all over. I know they probably have their reasons, but I can’t help but feel abandoned. Their hearts wasn’t in it anymore, but don’t they realize that what they did changed lives? Nothing  lasts forever, but I’m not ready to let them go. I still need them in my life.

We’ve tried so hard to understand, but we can’t.
We held the world out in our hands and you ran away.
It takes some time to let you go and it shows.