Coming out of my cage, and I’ve been doing just fine.


As you might have guessed, school’s over and I’m free. Finally, after all those, dark, seemingly endless hours of school, it’s done. So what have I been doing to celebrate my newfound freedom? Well, pretty much nothing. I’ve spent the past week, save for one day, doing nothing. Just moping around. It’s like a post-school depression. Except that can’t be right, can it? No, I think it’s the fact that I’ve been so used to having to do stuff that I just turned into brainless goo once I had the chance to do whatever I want. But I think I’m over that funk now. I’m bored, and I want to make the most of my summer break, because I know that I’ll regret it majorly if I don’t. Oh, and since I’ve (obviously) got the time, I’m going to get my shit together and update more often. Might give me something to look back on and reminisce about during the coming winter. Yeah, so anyways, I’m ready for the summer now. Woho. Or whatever.

Tune of the day what the fuck ever…alright, CXXXVII. Can’t be that stand-offish. It’s a classic, and it’s hella catchy. Kind of like I want my summer to be. But in a period of time, and not song, way. Yep.

Open up my eager eyes, ’cause I’m (in my case) Ms. Brightside.

Experiment: Mindfuckery to control life. Part uno.


(for you who didn’t catch my, very clear, intents of the last post, I’m doing a little experiment to see how much (or just if) my thoughts and mindset can actually affect the coming day.

part one of the experiment completed. I tried going into the day with a positive attitude, but I don’t really know if it affected my day. It was…meh. Some good things, some bad.

The good things were that I had two small, but nice, conversations with two girls that I don’t really talk to much. Hmm, what else…oh! We played a, really stupid but useful, game in spanish and my team won, me having scored us one point (out of four). So that was a positive. Also, my friend told me this really good joke, or actually, she did this spot-on impersonation of a certain social-climber in our class, and I was so caught off guard that I cracked up…really loudly. Anyways, the joke stuck with me so every now and then, I could remember it and just start chuckling to my self. Also, I borrowed An Abundance of Katherine’s, so I have another John Greene book to read…that’s a major positive. Oh, and I also realized something that made me a lot happier than it should have; I will probably hear Phreckles speak english again! We chose the courses we want to take next year, and I chose English C. He probably did to. It’s going to be wizard. Sooo wizard.

Alright, now the negatives, let’s see. I woke up feeling like shit, my throat was as dry as a bone. But that got better as the day went on. Another negative was that I was late for spanish class, but I don’t really care about that to be honest. Actually, now that I think about it, I’m glad that I missed the train. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have spoken to those two girls. A huge negative was  that I had biology, chemistry and physics. Having those three bombs of subjects = no fun. Lunch sucked, as per usual, so I ended up chewing on some lettuce like a freaking rabbit. And last but not least, no Phreckles. He spent the day taking his Physics nationals, so I only saw him about ten seconds at the end of the day. He rushed in to tell the teacher that he was leaving, and his cheeks were all speckled with red. Poor thing. I know how excruciating that test is. He left for the States before finishing the course, so he had to complete it this semester, while taking the B course with the rest of us. Tough shit.

Alright, now that I assess my observations, I see that nothing of substance happened today, positive or negative. Now that I think about, hardly any one of these things were made possible due to my efforts in staying positive. At least, I don’t think so. Well, the two convos could have been affected, maybe my high spirits made them more enjoyable. All right, all of the positive things could be linked to me being generally “yay life!”. I can’t say the same to the negative ones. So maybe having a positive attitude does brighten your day? I definitely need to count in the fact that I could be searching for the right answer, seeing what I want to see etc. It’s a tricky one. Hmm, we’ll see. I’ll try different things and see what happens.

Love & Post-its

Wanna make life more exciting, bro

Okay, so I’m constantly thinking about how to make my life more interesting these days, what with my it being so boring and all. So, during my uneventful days, I’ve thought of a few things, all leading to me becoming a hipster. Which initially wasn’t my intention, but if the things I like and want to do equals me becoming a hipster, then so be it. I don’t want to label myself though. Anyways, here are some of the things I thought of.

1. Buy some new clothes.

Now, to the people who know me, this isn’t something new, as I already am an avid shopper. But this time, it’s the clothes I’ve always thought were cool, but never dared to buy myself. I’m talking about hipster clothes. Think Liz Lee (my idol btw). Graphic tees, skinny jeans, sneakers, beanies and cool caps. Actually, writing this kinda made me snort, ’cause I already wear this stuff. Kinda. I guess it’s just gonna be more focused from now on. Oh, and  a lot of secondhand shopping. So fun.

2. Start skating.

Yep, me, the person with the worst balance in the world, is going to buy a skateboard. I’ll admit, I’m a bit scared. But I’m thinking that maybe this’ll solve my problems, help me not fall over at random moments. Kind of an impulse decision, but those are needed in this case. Plus, it looks like so much fun.

3. Start playing bass.

I got a black acoustic guitar, named Charlie, and I’ve been playing it for a bit, but not too serious. A couple of months ago, I started fooling around and playing bass on it, and I gotta say, I really like it. I like the deeper sound and more steady strumming. Yeah, it seems me. So, I’m planning on buying a bass and actually becoming good at playing it. The dream is starting a band. Yes, I’m reaching, but you got to dream big, right?

4. Start  making sound effects when I’m doing everyday things.

Okay, this isn’t really serious lol. I just thought the list was too short. But making sound effects does make everything more fun, I do it from time to time.

Obviously, the goal is making my life fun. We’ll see if it works. If it doesn’t, I’ll just make another list.

Tune of the day. Chromeo is boss.

Chromeo – Fancy Footwork

And the rest of our lives would have fared well.

Reminiscing with an old friend  over hot cocoa is the best. Sitting in a coffee shop, warm and cozy . Speaking about the good times, completely forgetting about the bad ones.  Thinking to yourself that you hadn’t realized how much you’d missed this particular person until that moment when you hug and realize your squeezing so tight it’s borderline painful. Wondering at what point you started considering this friend as ‘old’. Getting angry at yourself for waiting over a year to meet and silently promising that it won’t happen again. Feeling scared that you might be lying to yourself. Forgetting it when that person tells you something particularly funny only that person would say.  Like a reassurance that it isn’t over. We haven’t forgotten and we won’t. And then you look out the window, see the shivering people and practically feel the cold biting your cheeks. You see the street you walked down so many times during the summer and think to yourself that it looks different. You realize, time constantly passes and things follow, without exception. It all always changes and that’s okay.

The Shins – New Slang

Love & Green Dragons

So fucking epic.

This is the start of something new. This is big….huge. I’m so excited I don’t even know what to do with myself. Not to mention, that in about 9 hours and 10 minutes, another epic thing is going down. Anticipated, me? That’s a ginormous understatement. I feel like I’m, literally, bursting at the seams. If I can manage to get a hold of myself, I’ll write a more substantial (a.k.a. not stupid) post. But that has to be after Epic Thing no. 2. Probably tomorrow then. I’ll give you a pretty picture in the meantime, I was planning on doing some really deep accompanying text to it but I’m too fucking jittery to function properly right now haha. Since it’s so pretty, the pic itself should suffice.

(Weheartit ofc)

“Insert deep, insightful comment about how some things are fragile, how easy it is for them to end and how hard it is to be able to point out the exact moment when it corrupts etcetera etcetera.”

‘Cause I’ve been going crazy, I don’t want to waste another minute…here.

I think this is the beginning of a new era of my life. An era where I won’t give a fuck, do stupid things and not be ashamed, having fun and just being fucking retarded. Thank you All Time Low, for showing me the way to a more enjoyable life. Oh, and btw, I’m so stoked about seeing them. Rocking the fuck out on their concert, acting dumb, moshing and just having a good ol’ time. Not to mention the fact that I’ll actually get to meet them, so awesome! So yeah, we’ll see what kind of shenanigans we’ll get into. I’m sure it’ll be thoroughly entertaining. So, maybe it’s not my weekend, but it’s gonna be my year!

Until later, Peace out…

“I got ‘jambon’ tattooed on my dick.”