Equations of the heart and It’s a hard part, but the true love way

Hi yall (again),

feeling a bit more optimistic now. Bloody brilliant quote below.

“Love is the square root of negative sixteen, 4i.
It’s what you know the number four is – prime, and unique, and the best.
But, there’s a twist.
It’s everything you think it is, but you have the i.
Love is imaginary.
It’s not something you can see.
It’s abstract, indefinable, and shouldn’t exist.
Yet, it does.
Against all odds, it’s there, waiting to be factored into a grander equation than the one it came from.
That, that is what love is.”

ze yellow dahlia

This qoute is so nerdy, cheesy and fucking uppity that it works haha. I think it really captures what love is all about. A big plus is also that the main character in it is one of my favourite mathematical mysteries: i. Imaginary number, what does that even mean? I mean, I get the part about some numbers not being able to exist. Like, if you take the square root of a negative number. Something times itself would have to equal that negative number but to get a negative number you have to multiply a positive number with a negative one, then the number would not have the same value and hence the impossibility. But I would rather call it that the number would enter another dimension or some shit, cause imaginary? Really? That just makes me think of an imaginary word like dooda or something, and then you put it somewhere. For istance, I want to put dooda right between four and five. Oh wait, that spot is already occupied by four point five. Drat! Maths and numbers are generally considered being a logical subject (not by me, I consider it to be one of the most abstract things on the planet) but imaginary number, among other things (ehem ehem pi) are completely illogical. That makes me happy, knowing that there really isn’t anything in this world that is logic. Whenever I think about imaginary number, I actually feel like I’m fucking high. Like trippy and philosophical and profound and just generally confused. What’s not to love?

Another tune:

Kings Of Leon – True love way

LSATYD (Still)

We are just misguided ghosts that travel endlessly, trying to find our place

Everyday I feel like I’m dragged deeper and deeper into the black void that is my life. I have my friends and family, but no one that really understands me. It’s not like I’m a fucking tortured soul who thinks and acts in a completely different way, I’m pretty easy to figure out, but it just feels like no one’s even trying. Like I really am an alien not even worth trying to communicate with. I’m surrounded by a shitload of people, but I’ve never felt more alone. This feeling gets worse some days and better other days, it’s funny how you (or at least I) feel lonely when you’re with alot of people but feel loved and safe when it’s just one person that sincerely lets me know he/she is there for me. This is probably just some teenage emoish shit and I know I’ll get over it, but still. I’m just so lost. Fuck.

Paramore – Misguided ghosts


Through the looking glass and Off with your head!

A boat, beneath a sunny sky
Lingering onward dreamily
In an evening of July —

Children three that nestle near,
Eager eye and willing ear
Pleased a simple tale to hear —

Long has paled that sunny sky:
Echoes fade and memories die:
Autumn frosts have slain July.

Still she haunts me, phantomwise
Alice moving under skies
Never seen by waking eyes.

Children yet, the tale to hear,
Eager eye and willing ear,
Lovingly shall nestle near.

In a Wonderland they lie,
Dreaming as the days go by,
Dreaming as the summers die:

Ever drifting down the stream —
Lingering in the golden gleam —
Life what is it but a dream?

A lovely poem from one of my favourite books: Through the looking glass, by Lewis Carroll.

(A very suiting) Tune of the day:

Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Heads will roll


Lovely deviations and Waking up monday morning, knowing that you’ve got to go to school.

Top of the morning to ya!

Today I’d like to share some of my favourite pics/drawings/paintings, all of which I found at the brilliant site called Deviantart. So, err…yeah.

By: Ramhay

Some people may think that this drawing is too “girly”, but to them I say: FUCK YOU! No, but seriously, I love the way the wings are drawn here. They’re kinda birdlike, but still not, and kinda like the “typical” angel’s wings, but still not. Fuck I don’t know, theyre just different haha. And I also love the way the hair seems to be slighty…levitating? Nah, I dunno but it doesn’ just hang there. Ofc I also love the way it seems as if the angel has been caught in her sorrow, as opposed of her “looking into the camera” if you know what I’m sayin’.

By: RohanElf

What’s not to love about this one? I mean, come on, it’s Corpse Bride ffs! I love the way the shadows are drawn, and maybe it’s a bit strange to focus on this but the piano, beautifully crooked. It’s also in this scene the most awesome piano duet is played, titled…The piano duet, couldn’t have guessed that one, could ya?

By: hannah-dora

I know I know, no more nagging about Wide Awake! But seriously, even you don’t like fanfics, would you say no to a dark Edward? Didn’t think so. Something about the broodyness and the I-don’t-give-a-shit attitude that makes me melt. I honestly adore this one.

By: lenity

It’s pretty obvious who this is supposed to be, Alice Cullen. I love the way this is painted because it looks almost like a picture but it’s so impecable at the same time. I love the hair, a much edgier and nicer spin on the pixie-cut. The eyes are also stunning, the artist said that this is supposd to be in the middle of her having a vision and fuck, she succeded in capturing that! 

By: katiebloo

Three words: Love The Eyes.

By: pixydream

I get an eerie, spooky feeling from this picture. Like it’s haunted. And you know everything freaky, I like.

By: Ninjatic

The last one now. This artist has done impossible possible, he has managed to make the Mad hatter HOT. I never thought I’d see the day haha. This painting is amazing, MAGICAL!

Tune of the day:

Belle & Sebastian – Expectations

Ciao for now,


New year depressions and Counting on fingers

Ohoy mateys (again),

I know it wasn’t very long ago ( 3 seconds cough, cough) since I posted but since I discovered I actually had readers ( three, but still!) I felt the need to compensate my lack of updating by giving you (drumroll please)…MUSIC! No really, if it’s something I’m proud of, it’s my taste in music. I would put up all of the songs but I just (literally this second) thought of the brilliant (and very unique I might add) idea of putting up a new song with every post. That way I’ll make new readers come back begging for more every time they get a new good song (cue evil laughter). I know I’ve already given you a treat for the day but I’m feeling a bit generous to day, with it being the first day of a new year and all, so I’ll give you another one.

But speaking of the new year, HAPPY NEW YEAR! May your year be filled with shittiness and other awful things. No, I’m sorry, just feeling a tad bitter over the fact that another year has passed by without ANYTHING happening. I think I’m too much of a bore, in theory I’m all like “Go for it, you only live once, carpe diem!” (and other cheesy shitty things), but in practicality (dunno if it’s spelled that way) I’m like “Oh no, what would my mother say? What would he/she (mainly he) say? Think of the children!” Well, FUCK’EM ALL! This year I have decided that I’m going to stop being such a little chickenshit and live life! And gee, how cheesy doesn’t that sound? Seriously that’s the most common new years resolution, along with “I am going to be thin!”. Actually, I could use losing a few pounds. NO WAIT! I will stop with the bullshitting  (I feel bipolar right now haha), instead of trying to kidd myself and make promises I know I’m not going to keep I will make a wish to the big Chief. Wish to God: Let anything happen…ANYTHING to make my life a bit more exciting! Kthnxby. No but seriously, I am getting a bit desperate here, and I’m only barely sixteen and I’ve already reeched some sort of crisis, this is not good. Well, let’s look at it from a positive perspective here, glass half full not half empty, always look on the bright side of life blablabla…at least my life can’t get any LESS interesting? Honestly, that is a fact that I’m depending on right now, my life-line…fuck.

Here is the second treat of the day that I was writing about.

Catch ya later homies, seeing as this blog is the most exciting thing in my life right now. Yes, I do know I’m sad. Your point?

LSATYD (again)

Oh, what can I do? I still need you, but I don’t want you now

Hola peeps,

It’s been a long time since I posted but who cares, it’s not as if anyone actually reads this blog, right? I was just listening to some tunes and when one of my kick-ass amigas sent me this song I got this really strange feeling, suddenly I felt like I was bursting through my skin and just had to do…SOMETHING! This (very odd) feeling was accompanied by a random angsty feeling. I technically hadn’t heard the song before but it felt familiar. A while later I was surfing on youtube and for some reason I felt the need to search on some Scrubs scenes, fucking awesome show btw, and in the scene with J.D. and Elliott hooking up there was THE song! So right there all my questions were answered, ofc I would feel angsty when I’m reminded of the scene that is every angst-filled teen’s dream. But the song is truly awesome.  I’ll put it up here to share it’s lovelyness with all of you lucky non-existent readers.

The Coral – Dreaming of you

I’ll write to yall later,